I can't believe this day!

So, I had to work today and fucking hell was it crazy. When someone enters the store, we are supposed to greet them, and let them know about the sale that is going on. Most of the people that walked through that door were either completely deaf or were just a fucking bitch. They didn't acknowledge me or say hello and continued to walk past me. So, since I was in a sour mood, I was like, "I'm fine, thank you for asking. Yea, the weather is great outside." I proceeded to do that every time someone entered the store. Finally, when I was talking to myself, someone was like, "are you talking to me?" "Yes, I said hello when you entered and you said nothing." "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't hear you." "Yea, because me screaming across the floor when you entered, was really quiet." I said under my breath.

Though, later on that day, I wasn't the one that got the brunt of the rude and nasty customers. P was ringing people up and apparently she made a mistake on some ones discount. This woman came in after the fact, I guess when she finally realized it, proceeded to complain and get really ignoble. P replied, "I apologize, I'm only human, it was busy." "I want you to adjust it!" She proclaimed. When we have to change something like that we have to return the whole purchase. When P told her this she began to curse. "I don't want to have to fucking wait for this. This is your fault, and I have to be somewhere." "Well, this is what I have to do, if you can't wait, then you can come back tomorrow." "You know, now your inconveniencing me! You a real fucking idiot, how fucking hard is it to do it right the first time!" "How dare you speak to me that way, now I'm not returning it, you can come back tomorrow or deal with it." "I'm going to complain to the company about your fucking attitude!" "Good and I will let them know how you spoke to me, and I have witnesses here." So, the few customers that were around the register said they would be willing to say what went down for P.

Can you believe that people have the audacity to speak to people that way. Seriously, it was definitely the day from hell. The entire day was filled with really irate customers.

Plus everyone is a complete pig. They leave shit all over the floor, and rip apart the store. Absolutely just revolting this day has been.

Why? just why? is what I have to say!!!!

Wishing...

Why are we so consumed by the need to achieve?

Is it the simple fact that everyone in your life has always told you so?

I don't know, and it is quite an annoyance, I'm not fond of. I believe, somewhere, we secretly want it for ourselves. To show all the people that we grew up with, hey, we made something of ourselves. Most of us want our dreams to end up being something extremely ostentatious. Yes, we all want to throw something in someones face: ha ha look what I have achieved, and what about you? What is it that you have? All of us have seen these dreams thrown in our faces, ripped to shreds, stepped and stomped all over; and yet, we still find the audacity to keep picking up our dream, to try again. I admonish these people. What strength it must take to shrug something like that off and keep going, but when do we know, when its time to give it up?

Are we too stubborn to know when?

I hope for the people, I can say... I call friends, that you produce your aspirations.

For the acerbic people I know that can't stand to see someone else flourish, I say: "Bah Humbug!"

Party!!!!!!

Get down, get drunk, Holla!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont want to feel like I do

I feel like I'm regressing, I don't know why, but I do. I'm starting to feel anxious again. I don't know, I've been feeling a little agoraphobic. That's pretty scary to feel that way. I have never felt that way and it's kind of scary to think I get nervous when I leave the house. I hate my house, and it's nerve racking.

Eh, whatever, I'll get over it, I have just spent way to much time in the house lately. That may be due to not having any friends, hmmm? Well, not having friends that want to do anything ever. Everyone is so busy working, and no one ever has time to hang apparently, I think that is a load of bullshit.

I got another B. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Why?????!!!!!! I know it was statistics, but it was hard. Then again I didn't try that hard anyway. What a fuck I am.

This summer has definitely been the worst one. I worked and went to school, that's about it. I guess it contributes to being not 21, but would I have gone out anyway since I have unattainable friends? It's all just really aggravating, and I can't shake this crappy feeling. I'll figure this tumultuous situation out eventually. FUCK!

Magic of some sorts

You must stop desiring, stop hating, stop willing, and you will feel a whole world of relief.