So I deliberately avoided going to school to file for graduation and I don't know why I did it. So it won't be processed till next semester and I don't know why I missed it. I didn't get off the couch and go by four thirty. I believe that I'm a victim of self sabotage. I do it to myself and have no one else to blame. I just don't know why i do it to myself. I guess no one knows why they do it, it just happens. I have to apply to other schools and I'm avoiding that as well because they want essays and letters of recommendation from a teacher or a former boss. Well, one of those isn't going to happen because I don't have a boss or one that would want to write me a letter of recommendation. I just don't feel like doing anything, I really don't. Priority one is definitely getting a job a.s.a.p. Ugh, why can't I just shake this fucking laziness!!!