Life is purposefully unfair. If it wasn't, would we have the drive to be anybody? Would we be able to make the most of ourselves, push ourselves to do the things we're afraid of? What would be the reason for us to live if we weren't perpetually trying to prove life's unfair cards wrong? I look at people who kill themselves or at least attempt to do so as people who don't understand this paradox. They're a lot of people who can't handle the unfair or that they get more than most people deserve. I guess I'm just saying that I understand why someone would want to end their life because their life was too unfair to bare.

Strange and yet, enjoyable!

It was certainly a wild weekend, to say the very least. I'll start with entering a world where inhibitions are left at the front door. I'm not saying that it's anything insanely classless, but I'm saying that's probably why the environment works so well. It's good to have a drink, dance, and have people watch you. Although some people stare at you with that creeper look, it's still great to dance with great people. Well let me get to the great people. There are two people that dance the night away and show no signs of giving in to fatigue. They're older men, probably in their late forties, they dance and move better than I do. They're a lot of fun, but I was getting hit on by this really creepy ginger. I knew that it was going to come back and bite me in the ass because I always make fun of gingers. I always say that they don't have souls and you shouldn't look them in the eyes. Anyway, the guy was quite a creeper and I had to get my brother to get him to go away. It was so funny, I kind of just ran outside and hoped that he didn't smoke. Of course, I was wrong and he came outside. That is when I had to get the brother to get him away. I'm such a Mary. I had a good time regardless of the fact. Oh, and I love how my brother thought I couldn't handle drinking all night. Hello, I am a bit of a premature alcoholic. The whole experience was like stepping into another reality. I didn't feel apart of the world where I had to go to work or do school work. I can see why my brother likes to be there. It's like my soul wasn't be sucked alive by the stress and expectations of society or my immediate family. I bet that's how he feels about it, hmmm, I should ask him. Wow, I need to move out of my house so I can finally breathe.

Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody

I love you... and this song always puts me in a good mood!