Why do we feel it's necessary!!!

I was just out with two of my friends. We used to call ourselves the movie trio: Spongebob (myself), Patrick (Mari), and Mr. Krabs (x-tina). We used to sneak into movie theater's when we were fourteen, fifteen. We went out tonight to a bar within the town called McBrides. We went there because my friend Kay was going there so we went to meet her. It was like most of the bars in my neighborhood, a heterosexual douche-fest. Anyway, we had a few drinks and spoke about our lives at the moment. Also, we joked about things that pertained to what was happening in the moment. What's really sad though is that people have to go out to a bar or club and hang out with their own friends and pay for overpriced drinks. I don't see why people get so upset when they just hang out in their homes and pay half as much to get even more messed up. "I like going out, just to feel social even if I don't really do anything." It's just really sad that we as a people feel as though we have to go out to a shabby bar to feel like we have a life. To be able to say to other people, I went to the bar last night, yea, it was OK, I had a good time! What is that? It's sad, it really is! But yet, I haven't really gone to a gay bar or club so I don't know if its the same feeling. Maybe, it's just the fact that I keep ending up going to straight fests, every time!!!!!!!!

Its been a while!

I haven't written in a while, and I'm not too happy about it. So many things have come to my attention and they're quite unnerving. I have recently found out that a sweet, fantastic human being has gotten horrible news. Her mother is dying and I was absolutely floored. Its so hard... life, life is so hard! Why can't it be easier? Why can't things work out for the best for us and why do we have to have such horrendous things happen to us? It's just hard and I can't really make any judgment upon this until life makes sense, OK.